Typically when some comments or public negative situation pick at my wounds, my nervous system would jump into fight mode, the pain would come, and just basically I'll be so agitated and angry that I would be like "let me go on so and so page to see what she's saying because I know she'll agree with me."

And the person is usually of my caliber, and they would post about whatever the public controversial or tragic situation is because it's always something

+then they would give their views.

+I would totally agree and feel a sense of relief that someone on my side is speaking truth to power

+As time went on with this, year after year, I realized the sense of relief was really only like a few minutes

+Their agreement still would not calm my nervous system (and now after years of recovery and healing, I understand this nervous system thing much better as it relates to mental health because in school I learned about the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system.
In college...total science lover here. I memorized those charts, but don't recall anything being related to mental health

+We learned it as "the brain"

+It's so much better to connect everything learned in a scientific context, under the microscope fact type of context; it's important to connect it to the "invisible" mental health symptoms

+This helps the problems feel scientific and less of 'our fault' for not thinking positively enough

+Baby you can't positive think your weight loss. 

+So it's the same. The weight loss comes after you put in consistent work, daily life changes and then

+Positive thoughts can work to maintain what your actual physical training has started to put in place for your mind and body

+The body has to be included, not just positive thoughts

+So yeah basically, my body would already be reacting with tension, tightness, fast heart rate...all those hormones related to the sympathetic nervous system (if I remember correctly, science lover, I think I'm right though)...so yeah, finding people who agree with me on these serious, life or death topics about injustice, well it would never be enough to settle my sympathetic nervous hormone release

+So then I'd go in the comments, hoping to find more and more who will agree with us; and I would, but then there would be tons of opposite comments and this would of course raise my frustration and keep my brain wanting to stay in fight mode, sympathetic nervous system

+Every negative comment would be my brain going "told you so. You're not safe in this world. Thus, I'm gonna keep releasing all these stress hormones so you can be ready to fight and survive."

+And, this is the same as when I used to use my personal page, art/business page, groups I run etc, to uplift, inspire, and of course challenge and make statements against typical nonsense and negativity

+No matter how many people agreed, it would be a temporary relief and satisfaction, but no feeling better, because my brain would still know that the threats are there, regardless of who agrees with me

+So recovery and healing and training my mind has been about training my brain to believe that the threats are no longer there, here, anywhere

+This is not  a 100% done deal, if ever, since the world revolves and rotates around injustice and cruelty, however, I have been able to eliminate the threats enough from living in my mind, so when I hear about something upsetting, I dont have to go searching for support

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