🦋I Love My Life Again

Zuri

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12/7/2024

Settling down from the election

It's just a feeling that hits me when I'm walking in my home, getting ready to do whatever, and a sense of relief will come across my mind and I'll feel like "I Love My Life."
This mostly came from a sense of feeling like thanks to my husband's amazing talents and some major good luck and mercy, we are finally financially okay! 🎉✨🎇

Since my husband got his well-paying job in 2019, we got a cute little older small home in 2020-we were able to afford groceries, afford the bills and so on.

(Though we still have to work on getting other house repairs done, the monthly bills are okay) because we've spent many years where month to month it would be a struggle to pay the bills.

Your sense of survival is at stake. Joe was always calm and felt like everything was going to be okay.
Me on the other hand, counting change! It was rough and I'm so grateful that Moonflower doesn't know that struggle life.

So of course, I've always been immensely grateful to be able to be a mom, wife, sister, daughter, auntie, & enjoy other things in my life.

Financial struggles take a huge toll though, so that's probably why I didn't have the "I love my life" thought start crossing my mind until we were able to get all the bills paid on time and while having money left over to eat, put gas in the car, and just live.

Once we got financially better off, I wasn't like feeling like "I love my life" every day of course. It would just be a pleasant feeling that would hit me every now and then.
Though our finances remained okay, it had become exceedingly more difficult for me to just make through each day, because of the state of the world....no need to list everything because then I'd never stop typing. Just everything going on and magnified and with all the protesting and organizing, and still no signs of change happening.

A journey, I guess I should look at it like walking through the woods or something. It's not a straight path, there are no directions, and in fact sometimes I'm straight up lost in the woods.
(Okay, I love nature so I'm not meaning to use "woods" in a negative sense. The woods are beautiful! But hey, it's the natural home for other wildlife, not for me lol. I'm just a visitor.)

But anyway, just in the past few days though, I'm back in a comfortable part of this journey, where I can be just walking through my house and have that sense of loving my life again. This means I am definitely closing some personal trauma wounds which helps my brain have a barrier against hateful people deepening my wounds.

There's a lot more to love about your life when you're able to break through some chains.

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