I'm truly much better, totally better about the skinny comments. But I guess I just needed to get it out. So I posted this on FB...Aug 31st, 2025 and I wanted to appear sensible and calm but I was so damn mad, I wanted to say:
EVERYONE WHO MADE RUDE COMMENTS OR JOKES ABOUT ME BEING SKINNY OWES ME A DAMN APOLOGY. Lol I was literally typing that out. Then I caught myself and later called one of my nieces and we laughed about it.
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Okay, so here is my restrained, "stay nice" post:
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If you knew me in college and made comments about how skinny I was, cause I couldn't get a break from everyone talking about my skinny problems.
So here's what no one knew
I now realize I had trouble eating because the root is that I was traumatized from having being targeted by aggressive men and boys, random public places {{{Edited out for this blog. Safe space for my kids}}} (when I met my husband; being in public with a man helped deter those issues).
Most guys were respectful, gentlemen, I'm talking about the other side of things. I wasn't harassed everyday of course, and I was never hurt
but it was enough to where it ruined me. Everyone has had their stomach in knots and can't eat. Imagine feeling that way every single time you left your house. You ain't gonna be eating either
[I was so f'in mad but put a laughing emoji here since I was on Facebook]
{{{Edited out for this blog. Safe space for my kids}}}
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{{{Edited out for this blog. Safe space for my kids}}}
Quote: "Professionals often say that trauma lives in the body—that your body literally holds onto those negative experiences, and over time, that tension and stress can turn into health issues."
Once I met my husband how about I started gaining weight because I could relax more and eat more.
My therapist talked about when he lost 15 pounds when dealing with anxiety, he talked about how anxiety (which everyone has to some extent) affects the stomach. And then we talked about my weight problems and that's how I was able to make the connections between trauma and weight loss
Anyway, I'm doing good
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No I was not doing good. But about 2 days later, I felt a million times better! I also have a hard time posting these things on social media because I don't want it to seem like I'm bragging about being called beautiful because I'm still working on not feeling guilty for being considered beautiful. And at the same time, I'm not going to hide those facts and how it matters in my life
Posted : 30 September 2025 03:54
