2/9/2025
If you're old (or if you watch the reruns) you remember Benita from In Living Color. Sitting in the window with rollers in her hair & knowing everyone's business. But she was still so cute and I liked her, from what I can remember.
So I have been Benita the past few days. I've been doing way too much reading about how "the trash" are firing folks, closing organizations and all other types of....I'm not even trying to come up with a word, I'm not wasting my creativity on this situation.
There's so much that they're doing, I just read the headlines and that's enough. There's not even a need to read entire articles because the headlines themselves are unbelievable. Me and my loved ones had been waiting on this so certain voters and the non-voters who refused to vote based on racism, could get what they deserved.
Too many idiots could not bring themselves to vote for the most qualified candidate, Kamala. And while I want their lives to be forever ruined, so far I notice that they are still acting the same, and haven't developed a singular brain cell, hell they don't even spinal cords at this point. They bring new meaning to the insult of being spineless
There are some big organizations and systems that are upset with how their funding is being cut and things like that...and there are some individual people feeling the negative effects of their own doing, and while I enjoy this, it still hasn't gotten to the point where it's widespread and deep enough for me. I want these people starved and suffering in such immense pain, I want their tears to flood the streets. I want them to cry so hard that their eyes burst.
I could actually take the time to say what I want to happen to the rest of their bodies and so-called souls but I ain't got time for all that. Saying I want their eyes to burst from their tears, well I think that gets the point across pretty good.
So far some of them are just complaining but baby, they better have much more coming their way. I know it hasn't been a month yet but I guess I'm bloodthirsty for racists to get what they deserve. They are never held accountable, maybe for once fate will be on my side. Just once and let the right motherfkers suffer the most please!
Also, some people just be typing anything and pretending. There's no way anyone except the ultra-wealthy, can see any positive in what "tramp and musty" are doing.
Anyway, I need to stop being Benita and just wait until an issue is right at my front door. Mind my own business and stop or at least cut back on reading the headlines with the hopes of seeing how much the people who voted for this are suffering.
It's actually been kind of addictive and had me up too late. I haven't gotten triggered or disturbed or anything like that but that is always a risk when you're out there
It's just been very interesting and slightly satisfying to see some content about these people getting what they deserve but they need to be hurting a lot more than this.
Now let me do right, and remember how grateful I am to just be me and be doing super great on my healing journey. I have to stay on the right track though and wanting revenge is righteous and fine, it's just that I can't get caught up in that.
Back to being Benita,
So I'mma let that window down, stop looking out of it, close my curtains, stop listening and get back to ignoring most of the noise out there and enjoy my own space.
But man it's hard to avoid the "Told you so!!!!!"
I'll just sometimes, take a quick peek out the window and close my curtains because I'm not one to gossip
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