Why this is not just a concert to me, but like a full circle moment of my life

💙Both of my parents are still here
💙Dad took us to the first concert I remember going to-New Edition
💙I not only turn 50 this year but I have done a miraculous job healing the little girl and teen girl in me

💙The "whys" for everything about myself have been answered and that is so peaceful to be entering age 50 with answers that take a lifetime or never come typically

💙"Why" couldn't I feel like my normal self as a pre-teen and teen? Because of too much stressful older male attention. And other very stressful and cruel male attention that also changed my life. I stayed silent because I thought it was all just a normal part of being a girl, I thought everyone else was going through the same type of thing in public spaces.
Being a girl in public spaces was extremely difficult, and that's just as an overall society problem.
Some of us were targeted more than others. 

I became filled with rage. I isolated myself, and had trouble connecting with the good guys, the gentlemen who liked me.

My husband of 22 years, is a good guy. 

And the New Edition concert he's taking me to, is in the same city we met. 
And, on the day we met!

March 28 in Birmingham, AL.

Backstory:
We were online friends for 2 years; not dating but posting on the same website.
I had an online crush on him for 2 years, but stayed silent. I didn't even know how he looked at first.
But I liked his writing.
This was back in the earliest days of Internet where it took us a little more time to get a photo posted, lol!

It's hard to imagine that the Internet was ever that way, but that's how it started. 

I knew that we were both living in the same city, again, I stayed silent.
I had bad luck and no luck with guys, so I was like, why even bother? What are the chances that I can have an online crush on a total stranger?
Then later find out that he's living in the same city where I'm attending college? Then actually have him to like me back?

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March 28th, 2003 was a initially just a regular, down day for me as I was away from home, low grades in my doctoral program, still isolating myself from the world, and was feeling very lonely in my dorm room.
I was used to loud houses with a lot of people.

I ordered some food, and remember going down in the elevator to pick up my food.
I let the delivery guy in the building, and we noticed that the door's glass was very damaged, cracked.
He said, "Seems like someone was trying to get in here."
I joked, "No, more like someone was trying to get out."

I did not know that I was just a few hours away from having my life change.
I got back to my dorm room and we had talked on the phone, maybe briefly just one time.
He called me and we decided to go ahead and meet in person at the University Student Center.
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So yeah, when I saw that my fave group of all time, right out of my childhood were coming to the city we met in on the day we met, I was like, you've got to be kidding me.