((This was orginally from March 22, 2025 but there were some technical glitches...as usual))
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Scrolling on someone's page on social media, I was looking for 1 specific update but I had to scroll far back because I had not been on there in a while. I hate when otherwise awesome people that I (kinda) follow, share rage bait posts from idiots. This is why I don't let the algorithm determine what shows up on my newsfeed. I ignore my newsfeed and just type in someone's name if I want to visit their page.
That way I'm in more control and responsible for what I see. When I saw the anti-Black post from a Black person, I did have to take a breath and process my emotions. It took a few minutes of using various tools in my healing toolbox, lol, to keep it together and not react in anger. It absolutely does take a variety of new thought processes, changing my focus, changing lots of different things etc, it takes a lot of tools.
I used to think that when you are healing, you would just automatically feel nothing, no offense or nothing when you come across hateful content. I have learned that no, healing, closure, keeping your peace are not automatic, instinctive luxuries and gifts. I have to keep working at these gifts, daily.
So that I'm more prepared when I out of the blue, come across race hate which is a very easy thing to come across.
Even for the next few days, that post would creep back in my mind and I'd have to fight back with my new way of looking at things. For instance, somebody Black post some racist stereotype that they believe about other Black people, I have to go "Well that's their Blackness. That's on their parents who were most likely the first Black people to fail them. That's on their family, community, ex romantic partners or whatever got them using their bad experiences to be a disgustingly bigoted person. That's how they choose to handle their pain which is just beyond pain and just hate and evil at this point. They should take it up with their mammy, pappy and other ancestors for giving them the trash DNA they have."
I mean hey lol, it takes work!
Not long after seeing the other content, I was on an art site and some racist art that most definitely was from someone of another race. So attacking Blackness has no limits, bounds and I have tons of cognitive techniques and adjustments to helps me, way too many to ever type out. But in the past I would try and report a racist listing. That takes energy and you're even getting more emotionally negatively attached. Now it would worth reporting if you knew something would be done, but that is not the reality. So I figured that person is so miserable and insecure and jealous of Black people, of all the amazing AI art they could generate they decided on something like that. Well again, that's their waste of life! They wasting their own life if they have one
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See also:
🟢 Pyler Terry No Longer Sends Me Into a Rage
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